You look into their eyes, try to make sense to what they say, but all you feel is hurt and you can't see past the pain.
In the next moment, they are already gone, and all that is left for you is their memory.
The cold truth of them leaving, leaves you with so much grieving, but there is nothing left for you to do or say.
They've gone away, they're gone away.
I am sure that you all can recall a time that someone has hurt you, decieved you, let you down, lied to you..
Of course this is probably not a happy memory, but not all our memories can be happy.
It was just last night that I spoke to the person who broke my heart the most for the first time in two years. I really didn't know how to react. Should I tell her I don't want to see her? Should I ignore her? Then she said that simple word, "please". "Please Bridgette, talk to me."
There was no reason that I should just push her aside and ignore her. All that she asked was for a moment of my time so she could say the things she wanted to say, so I gave her that moment.
Memories of the past swimming through my mind, remembering everything that I had tried so hard to forget. I remember what the pain felt like fresh in my heart.
She apologized to me, for everything that had happened. I could hear it in her voice that her apology came from her heart, and of course, I told her that all was forgiven long ago. What reason would I have not to forgive her? She took time to speak to me in person and pour out all that she was feeling. She took the time, to tell me that she was sorry...
I know that sometimes it is hard to put the past behind you, but let forgiveness into your heart. There is not a single person out there who will ever be perfect. We are only human, and we are bound to make mistakes in this life. It is those mistakes that build us to be the person we are today. Everybody has a reason for why they are the way they are and why they do the things they do. Sometimes your not going to understand why, but you can at least try.
I know that I have done things that I wish I could take back, said things that I wish I never said. There are things that I am deeply sorry about, but there is nothing I can do to change what happened. The only thing I can do, is realize what I did and grow from it.
With such an apology how could I turn away? To turn away from her then would only be possible if I didn't have a heart. That is why I did my best in showing her that she still has a special place in my heart and always will.
I see all the struggles in the world, all the things people have to go through, which is why I forgive..
That moment last night is a moment I will cherish. Oh how meaningful a single moment can be.
Cherish every moment you spend with someone, you never know when you might see them again. Forgive someone if they ask you for forgiveness, they are only human after all.
Love,
Bridgette
I think this is beautiful. Even if they don't apologize we should forgive because us not forgiving is just going to create anger in us that doesn't leave until we forgive. Another thing I've learned in life is, how important it is to forgive ourselves. Everything you've said applies in self forgiveness also. After all, you're only human too. Forgiveness is one of the most challenging, yet most rewarding lessons to learn in life. One of the key elements to my happiness is just this. yes. forgive. cause in the end does it REALLY matter what happened? I love you Brig-a-ti-ta. You have a gorgeous point of view. Misssss ya.
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