Some days you wake up, and feel like there is no reason to get out of bed. Why not just lay there and sleep forever. Let the world continue on without you.
It can be hard to believe that you have a purpose. It's hard to believe that things could possibly turn out okay when it feels as if your entire life has been flipped upside down. You’re spiraling downward, out of control, confused, hopeless. The sun has been taken out of your sky, leaving you lost in darkness, leaving you feeling… numb.Nothing promises you that life will be easy, and each and every person will learn that for themselves. We all will experience pain; emotionally, physically, mentally.
Sometimes, that pain seems to overwhelming to handle, but I have learned for myself that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle you will face.
These thoughts and feelings are what brought around the idea to get “This Too Shall Pass” tattooed on my feet. Every day when I go to put on my shoes, I will have that reminder right there in front of me. That whatever trail I am going through I am capable of overcoming it, that I have the strength somewhere inside of me to move forward from whatever is holding me back from true happiness.
If you feel as though you can not make it through another day, let this be a reminder to each and everyone of you that you can overcome anything.
B Brutality reading the first half of that blog was like reading a narration of my childhood. My mother was very abusive and cruel and my father was completely oblivious to what we were experiencing no matter how much we begged and pleaded for him to take action. Everyday was waking up with the knowledge of knowing that this creature we called mother was going to find a way to degrade us further and make our lives even more miserable. I still remember each day when I was alone i would go to the knife drawer and take out a steak knife and hold it against my chest thing if there is such a thing as an afterlife then it would save me form this hell. Everyday I would put the knife back and walk away disgusted that I couldn't do it. Because there was always this little voice in my mind telling me think of the vast oceans and forests you'll never see, the people that you'll never meet. Maybe even go to some far away place like Paris someday. I walked through life as a numb cold shell of a human being, unfeeling and uncaring knowing any person could be just as cruel and cold as my mother and treating them as if they were. My attitude on this didn't change until Freshman year when me and my father moved out from under her tyranny and I met Mr. Flack. My whole world was flipped and spun as he completely opened my eyes and taught me to chase every opportunity. I still respect him as the man that helped me save myself from the cold hell and get a new perspective on life. Things never just get better tomorrow and sometimes doing something about it is never enough. Sometimes we just need to wait for that one opportunity to pull ourselves up and push on for a brighter future. If it I didn't pull myself out of my lifetime funk when I did I don't know how much longer I could have lasted but I know that now I'm pushing to leave the past behind and reach my brighter future.
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