My Release.

I try to talk and explain what's going through my head, but I can't find a way to say it. I'm not very good at trying to explain what i feel. I open my mouth and all the wrong words come out, so instead I let the words flow through my hands. The easiest way for me to express myself is through writing. When i'm on an emotional roller coaster and I need to get things off my chest, I vent all my emotions into a poem. I don't really like to share my poems with anyone, but I will. It's my release... and today... i need a release.

Soo....


Here goes my best attempt at trying to explain the things I feel in my heart.

I guess it's true, that i got attached to you to soon.
Honestly, I couldn't stop it. You had me from the start.
Like the fluttering of a hummingbirds wings, something awoke in the depths of my soul.
A feeling i've never felt, not even in my dreams, took over me entirely and for once,
I felt whole.
My mind has been entirely consumed, my heart following that same path.
But have I just become an abandoned memory, blowing through the winds of your past?
Oh how badly I hoped that this would last.
Looking up, looking down, you are nowhere to be found.
Something about you, it just felt so right.
Where have you disappeared to darling? I need your guiding light.
I apologize.
Your beauty struck me, so suddenly.
So suddenly I felt you in my heart.
You're gone now. My mind is in a hopeless wander.
Completely lost on how to keep myself from falling apart.
Your vow of silence, it cuts through me like a knife.
Just for this moment, i'll pretend everything is alright.
Realizing that it's time to let you go.
Realizing I can't let go.
Don't let me go.
I'm falling.
I'm fading.
Sweet misery please save me.
Just hoping that you know...
No matter how bad this hurts,
You're worth every second you've been on my mind.
Your smile still shines brightly
Your eyes show your gorgeous soul
Wishing to sit there and hold you so tightly. Wishing.
                                                                               Wishing.
                                                                                             Wishing.
I wish I didn't have to let you go, but I must.
I think knowing that is what hurts the most..


Love, me.